Wednesday, 30 January 2013

While journeying on faith, we are almost on anesthesia from the pain of reality.

All the faithful servants have been a dreamer - in other words, those who knew of the challenges of reality but persevered and faithfully journeyed on.

You could say they are all under mass fideistic anesthesia. The world mocked them.

Is it a useful wake up call or is it a temptation of Satan dragging you to a lower world?

I am not sure.

My wife is often the one who is a realist, who does not see beyond what she sees with her own eyes. She is almost like Lot who only saw a fertile land before his eyes while Abraham saw farther.

With her own words, she said God is using our little family to support others at this time. Where did that go?

Is she waking me up? or is she shatters my faith?
Is she being like those 10 spies sent to the promised land or a talking donkey before the evil path of Ballam?

What has faith got to do with this-she may say? She is under a dangerous platonic dualism that defines the sphere of God and sphere of man; although seem to protect God's holiness, but no, it is a restricting God's reign on 'trivial' part of our lives.

All these that we go through is also under God's supervision, and radar.

In fact, before God all our work, lives are trivial...

She wakes me up, I am woken up, but I choose to go under the anesthesia of faith because, that is the only way.

I think of David, last few days God really spoke to me clearly that I should not give up but be a blessing to him. Yes overdrafts, and debts worry me but they are just numbers. Credit is also my asset that God has given me.

It buys time, it buys education, it buys chance to shine much earlier. It is not a matter of choice, but matter of faithful journey.

God does not want us to settle with the second best. What is the best for David - that is going forward without a delay.

Second best is to re-enrol. Would God want a second best choice for him? I felt strongly that it was no.

Have I paid for David's cello and fee? no God did through me. In whom who gives me strength and means.

If she can't be on my side, but stays as a opposition, then let her be. If our faith cannot go through this, my faith will.







Friday, 11 January 2013

어깨는 나중에 어디어 쓰려고?

신명기 10장 8절 “ 그때에 여호와께서 레위 지파를 구별하여 여호와의 언약궤를 메게 하며 여호와 앞에서서 그를 섬기며 또 여호와의 이름으로 축복하게 하셨으니, 그 일은 오늘까지 이르느니라”



다윗이 통일 이스라엘의 왕이 되고, 언약궤를 예루살렘으로 옮기는 가운데, 레위 지파가 어깨로 매고 옮겨야 하는 명령을 져버리고, 편하게 소가 끄는 수레로 언약궤를 옮기다가, (역대상 13장 9절) 소가 뛰고 언약궤를 옮기는 바람에 잠시나마 영광스러웠던 행차가 멈추게 된다.

다윗은 3개월 뒤에야 깨닫고, 레위지파 제사장들로 어께에 매고 다시 행차를 시작하게 된다.

편하게 수레가 끌수 있는데, 왜 무식하게 어께에 매나요? 라고 질문 하고 싶은가?
그런 질문을 하는 뒷편에는 편하게 신앙 생활하고자 하는 마음, 우리에게 주어진 십자가를 거부하고자 하는 마음이 있지는 않은지?

어쩔땐 하나님께서 무식해 보이지만, 우리 어깨에 영적인 짐을 메고 가게 하실때가 있다.

무식해 보여도, 의미 없어 보여도, 우리의 노동과 희생을 통하여 그분의 언약의 약속이 주변에 더욱 퍼질수 있다면, 그분의 빛이 간절히 필요한 곳에 우리를 통해 전달되어질수 있다면, 우리는 기꺼이 이 짐를 메고 가야 한다.

이천년 전에 그분또한 그렇게 하셨기 때문에,,, 그분 연약한 어깨에 무거운 나무 십자가를 직접 지셨기 때문에.... (결코, 수레에 맡기지 않으셨고, 다른 자들에게 맡기지 않으셨고, 쉬운길을 찾지 않으셨고,,) 지금 오늘 우리가 있는 것처럼, 우리는 기꺼이 이 짐을 메고 가야 한다.

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